Showing posts with label New Goal Sunday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Goal Sunday. Show all posts

Sunday, January 5, 2020

New Goal Sunday

New Goal Sunday

Happy Sunday! My new goal for this week is a common one for me, but one I’m struggling with big time:

5 frozen mochas/week

I thought I would be down to 6 this week, but turns out I was actually able to skip one day last week, so I’m down to 5—not 6—this week. These stupid drinks. They won’t let me go, and I can’t escape them. Mentally, I use them as a reward for…well…everything. Did I have a successful week of work? Frappucino. Did I teach well today? Frozen mocha. Do I have a long distance to travel? Frappucino. Did I wake up and get something done this morning? Frozen mocha. Is it Monday? I need a frappucino. Did I wake up? Frozen mocha.
Physically, I feel like I’ve trained my body to feel drained of energy if I don’t have one. On the day last week that I didn’t have one, I was too busy in the morning to grab one, but keeping myself busy was key. I didn’t feel drained of energy, but was active all morning. Imagine that…active without my morning gallon of sugar/caffeine? Couldn’t be.
Sometimes, I can even get emotional over these drinks. My dad tries to help, but I will get emotional, getting a little teary-eyed if he says no. I then explain to him just how much I need these drinks.

I’ve been getting these drinks for well over a decade, and I’m sick of feeling dependent on them. Hopefully, holding myself more accountable by being more social and open about my daily life will force me to completely cut my dependence on these.

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

New year, new goal

I had wanted to post this Sunday morning, but I didn't sleep well and was driving for 3+ hours to visit friends for New Year, so I haven't gotten a chance to post until today, but this is an exciting one! 

Happy New Year, y’all!

Last week, I wrote a post about how these stupid frozen drinks have a mental/emotional hold on me.

Fast forward 7 days and guess what?!?!?!

I DID IT!!

I FINALLY had ONE DRINK this week! That’s it! 

I’ll be completely honest…everyday was a struggle. Whether it was walking by a Starbucks in the grocery store thinking, “I need a peppermint mocha frappucino” or going to a bagel shop that was close to our local Panera and thinking, “I’ll just go afterwards to Panera for a frozen mocha…”

I had more hot chocolates this week to cover for it (2), and I know those aren’t really “healthy”, but the sugar/cal count vs. the frozen drinks completely makes up for it (at least in my mind). I also actually drank some water during the days, too—which is another goal I will be working on soon.

It feels so good, and I’ve already noticed a difference!

I’m not talking in terms of weight, inches, or even large physical differences; think…smaller.

I had the frozen drink Monday morning, and usually by Wednesday, I would have had one, then another Thursday-Saturday. I DIDN’T do that and randomly looked down at my legs Thursday morning.

**NOTE: Let me make this absolutely clear. I hate my legs with a burning passion. I hate looking at them, I hate knowing they’re there, I detest these ugly, misshapen blobs that make me move. I never moisturize them because, to be honest, I wish they’d just fall off. **

For some reason after getting ready Thursday morning, I looked down at those gross things attached to my body and instantly noticed a small difference. My legs (mostly ankles/calf part of the leg) are always swollen because of my weight, and over the years, I’ve gotten used to it but haven’t let it deter me. When I looked down, I looked at my calves, looked up in surprise, and looked back down. 

My calves didn’t look as swollen as they usually do. I looked a total of 3 times to make sure I wasn’t just being extra hopeful. But no, each time proved what I had originally seen. My swollen legs were finally starting to slowly return to a more normal leg shape.

Another new "feeling": my pants are getting big in the back. I am down about half a pant size in "comfy" pants (these are just black pants with an elastic waistband). I used to be a 4X, but they are getting really big in the back and keep falling down, so I am down to a 3X with a little snugness in the front.

So, yeah, lesson learned: taking care of yourself makes you feel GOOD.

New goal?!?!?!!? Finally?!?!?! YES.

Since my previous goal was more of a dietary change, this week, I’m adding in a little exercise.



Goal of the week 12/31/17-1/6/18:

get to gym 1 day/wk

You might think…1 day this week? That’s all? Well, here’s the deal: I know. I think about it everyday. I’m taking ridiculously small baby steps that shouldn’t really account for anything. But here’s why I’m doing what I’m doing. 

I have talked to many doctors about weight loss. While I haven’t told them that I write about my experience traveling through this, I have talked about nearly EVERY aspect of my weight loss journey with them. I’m not shy when it comes to questions. I’ve learned over the years (especially recently) that asking questions, no matter how embarrassing, stupid, or repetitive they are, is the best way for me to get the most out of each doctor visit. So, yes, I’ve talked to professionals who know what they’re doing. The doctors I visit are:

General Practitioner

OB-GYN

Diabetes Management Specialist

Cardiologist

4 separate doctors, all who have discussed how to go about losing weight. All of them agree—starting small is best.

So, yes, one workout this week, along with one frozen drink this week. Doesn’t seem like much, but one is better than nothing!


See you next week!

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

New week, new feelings

Holy moly, guys. I haven't blogged in 6 months. Why? Um....crazy busy schedules, 3 concerts in 2 days, 4 church services in 1 day, etc...and on top of all that, I couldn't get my blog to load...I couldn't get to the page I needed to post an actual blog! My computer just kept refreshing it quickly, but would never actually get the full page up so I could write a blog post. I don't know what's going on, but for some reason I was able to get around that and write this post. I'll keep trying to stop this problem.
It's a new week, and so much has happened in the past 6 months that I WANT to update you with everything right now here in this post, but there's just so much. So, I will say this: 

I did another musical! 
I am slowly getting back into subbing!
I celebrated Mom's first anniversary of her passing!
I made plans to see friends! (p.s.: see you in less than a week, friends!)
I had 3 concerts in 2 days, but for one concert, I got to sit back and enjoy
I got sick (that's now)
I had a big health scare and am still struggling big-time with it

I think that about sums it up...I will go into detail in more blogs.
So, new week, lots of new going-ons...lots of emotions on Mom's favorite holiday...LOTS OF STRESS...mostly unnecessary, some brought on by myself, most brought on by outside forces...


It's a new week, and I have a recurring goal that I've been working on for many, MANY years. 
This one is pretty old (and EXTREMELY repetitive), but since I haven’t truly accomplished it yet, I’m sticking with it until I do.


1 frozen coffee drink


I just can’t seem to shake these dang frozen coffee drinks (frozen mochas, frappucinos). They are so good, and I have treated them as a reward for so long (years) that going without them almost feels like I’m punishing myself. Some mental blocks I'm discovering I have:

—I can’t go to Panera without almost ALWAYS getting a frozen mocha.

—I’ve only gone to a Starbucks and gotten a hot chocolate (or other NON-frozen coffee drink) only ONCE in the past few years…every other time, it’s a frozen coffee drink.

—When I know I can’t have a frozen coffee drink, I force myself to not leave the house…physically. I just sit there in the morning, waiting until at least 11, when I can go get a pop…

…..so…..see the problem? I’m having a really tough time mentally and emotionally getting rid of these hankerings.

But, if at first you don’t succeed, try, try again, right?

I had mine yesterday, so my next one won't be until next Sunday (I start my weeks on Sundays, and get one on the way to church when I go early to practice).


Also, I like giving a music/motivation Monday update...just music I like listening to, and a motivational quote to get me through the week!

Music: Um, it's the day after Christmas, but I DON'T CARE. I LOVE CHRISTMAS SO MUCH I WANT IT EVERY DAY OF THE YEAR! AND....right on cue, a snow plow goes by. 

One of my favorite Christmas songs, for the music AND the lyrics: Stevie Wonder's "What Christmas Means to Me"


This one always gets me going and makes me feel so happy!

Motivational quote:

Know that you can start late, look different, be uncertain, and still succeed.

Have a great end of the year!

Sunday, June 18, 2017

New Goal Sunday

Good afternoon, all, and Happy Father’s Day!

It's New Goal Sunday, and my new goal is…well…finally new! 

I think I FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY have this frozen coffee drink obsession under control. I’ve been struggling big time with this. Frozen coffee drinks (frappucinos, frozen mochas, etc…) are some of my “comfort foods” but these (and pop) are my biggest downfall for weight loss. After my mom passed, I would have one every day. As the months went on, I tried to cut back on them, but would always create an excuse every morning to drink one anyways. Here’s an example:


Sunday: I get one every Sunday…that’s my choice. I take it while I practice at church.

Monday: Okay, I don’t need one today. Although, it’s Monday…and I hate Mondays…so I’ll get one.

Tuesday: You know, I didn’t sleep well last night. Maybe a caffeine jolt would help me…time for a frozen coffee drink.

Wednesday: I’ve got to substitute teach today…I will DEFINITELY need a frozen drink.

Thursday: Maybe today I actually won’t get one (and I usually don’t).

Friday: I made it through the week and it’s Friday! I’m getting one!

Saturday: I’m going to go to church and practice…I’ll need one of those.


See what I mean? I could make up any excuse, and my poor willpower would vanish in a second.

But now I think I FINALLY have it under control. I go on Sundays and that’s it.

So, the NEW part of my goal is to get to the gym one time this week to do some cardio, which will most likely be the treadmill. If you’ve never seen me on the elliptical…well, it's bad. Let’s just say, I tried it once, and sweated my butt off until sweat was dripping off my nose and face. All I could think was, “You go, girl! Way to get a nice, long, cardio workout!” I looked down at the machine…5 MINUTES. That was it. It was so embarrassing…


Have a great week!

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!! Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season. Mine was...good...not great, but good. My family was SO busy up until Christmas Eve that, at least in my opinion, we couldn't enjoy the holidays like we normally do.

Christmas is such a special time of the year for me, and no, it's not because we get free gifts and eat tons of cookies. The Christmas season is my FAVORITE season of the year. In my mind, nothing compares to it. It seems like everyone is happier during the Christmas season. Carolers sing carols, people are kinder to one another, and the world's biggest problems appear to drift away while we celebrate "the most wonderful time of the year". And yes, the cookies help, as do the presents, family time, decorations, and songs (almost half of my music library is Christmas music). But mostly, it's the spirit of the season that makes me enjoy it so much.

This year, though, was different. Yes, I felt happy during the Christmas season, but I was busy with show rehearsals at night, and trying to clean the house/bake cookies/get out decorations during the day, that when the show ended on the 20th, I booked it like crazy to try to get Christmas "up" in our house in 4 days for company on Christmas Eve, but it was impossible. And the ONE room in the entire house that I LOVED decorating, where some of my favorite decorations go--MY room--couldn't even get decorated until after Christmas because I focused my attention on our common rooms downstairs. So, unfortunately, I didn't get into the spirit of the season as much as I like to.

However, I did get some really nice presents, including the first season of "The Office", a new book, a new healthy cookbook, and a new regular size Tarte mascara (I was using a sample size but told my mom I was using it sparingly because I couldn't afford it ("drugstore brand" makeup is usually what I buy), so she bought the mascara full-size!


With a new year comes new goals, and here are my goals for the week:

1.) Drink all diet pop

2.) Walk 1x/wk for 15 minutes

3.) Track mood daily

4.) Get to gym 1x/wk

See you Sunday!

Sunday, October 25, 2015

New Goal Sunday

It's New Goal Sunday, and today is a new day just like any other. I've found as I go through this journey that I have trouble focusing on one day at a time. For example, it's only Sunday, and I'm already thinking about my whole week...what I'll eat, when, where, if I will have the money to go out if necessary, etc... That is a large problem I am currently working on. I actually have written on my goal board (beneath my goal) "Take it one day at a time--you can do this!"

HOWEVER (there's always two sides, isn't there?), as a musician, I feel that I cannot and do not have this luxury of taking life one day at a time. This year has been extremely busy for me, with 6 musicals year-round, church (including church choir and soloists for the big 150th anniversary celebration), a new accompanying gig, and long-term subbing. For me to think one day at a time is impossible. This past spring, I was asked by a dear friend if I would be available all summer to play in multiple musicals. If I had only thought of one day at a time, my response most likely would have been, "Right now, I'm not sure. Let me get closer to summer and I'll let you know." Musicians in my hometown are in high demand, especially accompanists, so people book musicians as early in advance as possible. If I said "no" to everything until I got closer to the actual performance time, people would go searching for someone who WILL say yes when they need them. As a consequence, I constantly think long-term, meaning anywhere from tomorrow to one year down the road.

Now I'll move onto this week's goal. It's from my doctor, who is helping me take small steps to reach my (as she puts it, 'ridiculous') goals.

SWITCH TO ALL DIET POP.

I've been working on this particular goal for 5 months now, and I can't seem to break my habit of drinking regular pop (mostly Coke, but occasionally Pepsi). My doctor told me to pour out 40 teaspoons of sugar onto a piece of wax paper, take a picture, and put it somewhere where I will see it everyday as a reminder of what I was putting into my body daily when I drank multiple regular pops a day. That picture will be up here at the end of the week.

Wish me luck!

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Hey, I remember this.

Yowza. Where on God's green acres did the time go?

The reason I am back here is because I have a LOT of changes happening in my life, and I wanted to share them here since I haven't done a good job of updating social media.

Last time you heard from me, I believe, was December of last year (2014), and I was doing...stuff....yeah...I'll be honest, I haven't looked at my blog since then.

OK, I'll start here: It's been over a year since my uncle died, and I can't believe it. This year has gone by so fast! I know Uncle is still here because, well, he won't leave us alone.

Signs that Uncle won't LEAVE US ALONE:


  • the rainbow that appeared in the sky 24 hours after he passed
  • when Father and I were wondering if he could hear us talking about him, I looked up at the clouds and visible in the sunroof of our car was one cloud--a heart
  • Uncle's stuff pops up everywhere, like the restaurant names he had come up with in notebooks I use when I'm teaching
  • On Brother's b-day, he showed up not just to me, but to Mother and Brother at the restaurant in Tremont we went to (this one deserves some explaining--I was in line at a cafeteria-style fancy restaurant when I looked to my left and there Uncle was, standing there, staring bug-eyed at the ENORMOUS amount of food at this restaurant. I heard him say, "Wassuuuuupp??" [one of his favorite catch-phrases] and then disappear. I couldn't believe it but knew I was struggling with grief and that it wasn't real. The family sat down at the table with dinner and Mother said, "Did anyone else feel or hear or see-?" Brother immediately answers "Yes. I saw him in line. He was laughing." I told my story, and Mother said the lady at the main dish line asked what she wanted, and she heard Uncle behind her say, "I'll take one of everything!" and then laugh. I knew then it had to be real.)
  • A dear friend of Uncle's left a solar Santa light at his gravesite. It lights up at night so Uncle never has to sleep in the dark. We took it home until next Christmas (this year!) and every night that it lights up, we know Uncle is here with us.
  • Beatles songs playing wherever we go, some normally in places that would never play Beatles songs. (Uncle was a MASSIVE Beatles fan--at the concert of '64 in Cleveland, he charged the stage with the rest of the audience and ALMOST touched John Lennon's BOOT).

So, yes, he is still here and won't go away, but I am totally A-okay with that.

Next. My jobS.

Wow. What a whirlwind summer. I'll back up to get you seeing what I was seeing before summer started. February-June was a long-term substitute teaching position at my elementary, middle, and high schools. I started my day at the "intermediate" building, teaching 2/3-5 graders general music (singing, moving, dancing, playing instruments, etc...). Then, I went to the middle school building to teach grade 7 band students. Finally, I ended my day at the high school teaching concert band (9-12 grade). Know right now that I am NOT a band person. Or at least, I didn't THINK I was. But somehow I managed to get through the year using all of the information I learned in college (including those seemingly endless resource guides that saved my butt quite often) and help from people on the web (Facebook friends/college colleagues) and YouTube videos. And personally, I think I did a darn good job walking into a sticky situation like I walked into. I made the best of it and truly enjoyed every minute of teaching every grade level.

In March, a colleague and dear friend of mine--who I had worked with on one musical last year (I was keyboard 2 in the pit)--asked if I would like to be involved in 2 musicals this summer, but this time as rehearsal accompanist instead of just playing in the pit. Heck yes!! Musicals are one of my FAVORITE things to do! I agreed. But wait...it gets better.

When the school year ended, I realized that the job(s) I had held teaching in multiple buildings were open (!), but unfortunately, they were only open to "internal applicants", and I was not one of those. OK....then, the high school choral director position opened up to anyone. *GASP* Perfect! I went for it and got an interview. I did my best and gave it my all at the interview, but did not get the job. I have to admit: I was heartbroken. After crying my eyes out for a few days, I was finally able to pick myself up. I got asked by a few people: Why are you so sad? It's just one job. Look for more! But here's the thing, people. I've been "looking for more" for the past 3 years, and it seems that every person out there deems me not worthy for a teaching job. I've applied to over 100 school jobs around Ohio, and still no one has even given me a chance. More than anything, I want a chance. Or at least I want to know when my chance will come, because I feel like there's got to be something great for me out there. I'm frustrated and tired of looking and tired of life. At this point.

The day after I found out I didn't get the job I interviewed for, work started picking up for me. I had the two musicals this summer, then I got booked for another musical for the fall and two other theaters asked for me for their fall musicals. I said no to the other two theatres (no time!) but accepted a job as accompanist for a third total musical.

Lost count? So far, I've played for 5 musicals in 2015. Phew!

My summer was "musical mania". I started at the first musical theatre company (a professional company made of up college age and just beyond actors and actresses who were either getting their musical theatre bachelors or masters degrees). I worked there nearly every weekday from 9-4/5 playing "West Side Story" music. Then, I drove home, grabbed dinner, and went to our local state theatre for musical number 2 rehearsal from 6:30-10 (community theatre), playing "Into the Woods". Then, on Sundays, I had rehearsal from 3-7 for musical number 2. What a busy summer, but I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. I love performing--it's my true passion and what I originally wanted to do when I went to college. So, playing/performing everyday? Cool beans.

During the first musical rehearsals, I was asked to accompany (REHEARSALS ONLY) another musical at the same playhouse. YES!! "Footloose"!!! All AMAZING experiences!

After the final musical--and summer--ended, I looked back on my past few months and felt a sense of complete bliss and happiness that I haven't felt in a long time. I wanted that feeling to continue, and now, as of the end of September, it still has!

I went to a production meeting for my fall musical ("25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee") and found out I'm not just accompanying the show, I am the music director (hello "promotion")! I not only play the music, but now teach all of it! I sat in on auditions and gave my input on cast selection. Then, before I knew it, rehearsals started. This is a truly amazing learning experience as I view and experience the "behind the scenes" of musical theatre and see just how much work goes into a successful show. As I tell my parents, I am keeping my eyes--and mind--wide open and absorbing everything I can while I have these opportunities.

On top of that, I've been booked as music director (woot!) for another musical at the local community/professional theatre that did "Into the Woods" for their winter musical! And I might have another musical coming up in March of 2016!

Hold on, I gotta catch my breath. Oh, and did I mention that I will be going to my first meeting of a local piano guild?!?! AND I am now the accompanist for a local community chorus!!

OK, I think that's everything. For now. So, to say I'm unhappy with life is not possible. I am blissfully happy and don't want this feeling to end.

OK, ok, weight loss. Weight loss. That's what this blog is all about. Ok, umm...I got a new doctor who is very supportive. She has given me goals to work on, including switching to all-diet pop (I knew the day would come), eating out only 2x/wk, and walking 30 mins 3-4 times a week. I'm working on those now as well as others. So, since tomorrow will be New Goal Sunday, I thought I'd get a head start and post my goals today. Currently, I have four:

1.) Switch to all-diet pop.

2.) Get 8 hours of sleep daily.

3.) Track all food everyday (the doctor wants to see my food journal at my two-month check-up).

4.) Get in 2 morning workouts.

My two month check-up is in about 2 weeks--wish me luck!




Sunday, December 7, 2014

New Goal Sunday

Happy December! Things are going...meh...here. They could be worse, they could be better. Our house is in decorating/baking mode (busy busy!), but we're still managing subbing/other jobs/regular daily life. Sometimes I don't know how people do all of this around Christmas time. I'm going bonkers just thinking of my to-do list, but am definitely (working on) paring it down this year.

I have finally gotten my frozen drink consumption down to 1-2 a week, and am satisfied with that. Sometimes, I will have 2 a week, and I just have to accept that. If I try to be absolutely perfect with every goal, I will never be able to move on and better myself.

Lessons learned from slowing my consumption of frozen drinks:

#1: I can save a lot of money! $4.50/day x 7= $31.50/week x 4=$126/month x 12=$1,512/year. Hey, new Coach purse, come to momma!

#2: I can save a lot of calories! 400 cals/day x 7= 2,800 cals/week x 4=11,200 cals/month x 12=134,400 cals/year.

#3: I can save a lot of...pain. One drink every day=...root canal. This is what I get for downing WAY too much sugar (as my dentist said). And guess what? I get to have the root canal procedure on my brother's birthday! Happy birthday Brother! Ow.

NEW goal: Sure, I'll keep that goal of 1-2 drinks a week, but now I'm adding a new fitness goal:

~Get in 2 20-min cardio sessions~

I usually go to the gym once a week (although this week I did not). I am still learning Planet Fitness, and am in love with their abundance of cardio equipment (treadmills galore, ellipticals, recumbent and stationary bikes AND (my personal favorite) a machine that is similar to a Cybex Arc Trainer, but I don't think the arms move... I'm just trying to take it all in now.

Have a  good week!

Sunday, November 9, 2014

New Goal Sunday

What a weird/rough/good/disappointing/happy week. This past week has been a roller coaster of emotions, some good and some bad. I'll start with the bad (and get that out of the way):

1.) My sleep schedule is off...WAY off. I've been sleeping night after night on the couch in our den, and that does not help. Here's how bad it's gotten. Two nights in a row now, I've woken up around 2:30-2:45, stayed up for an hour watching TV, and then finally drifted off to sleep. Last night was the worst. I fell asleep around 8:30 (the fact that I fall asleep really early like that doesn't help either). I woke up at 2:45 and stayed up until 4 a.m. I couldn't get to sleep, and it was for a terrible reason. I watched TV (anyone remember the Disney movie "Quints"?! It was on at 3:30!), but I turned it off around 3:45. I stayed up until 4 crying, literally sobbing quietly. I was reliving the day Uncle passed over and over in my head, thinking about everything I could have--no, should have--said that day. I should have done this, I should have said that. It was like I was trying to hurt myself again and again, but I couldn't stop these thoughts from creeping into my mind. 
I'm finally going back up to my bed. Hopefully, these issues won't happen again.

2.) It's been an up and down week in terms of work. I worked three days and had two days off. The three days that I worked had their ups and downs. 

3.) I swear it's not Sunday yet. It can't be. The weekend just started! (Get it? My weekend flew by.)

Now to the good (and I mean VERY good):

1.) I got to the gym today! For some reason, getting to the gym first thing on a Sunday morning makes my week (or at least my Sunday) get a good head start. 

2.) For the first time in at least 10 years, I have cut my frozen drink consumption to 1 drink a week. I have NEVER been able to do that since I started drinking frozen drinks over 10 years ago. I couldn't believe it! That's gotta be sone willpower I have.

Now it's time for a new goal! I'm actually sticking with my goal from last week. I've heard that it takes 2 weeks for a habit to kick in, so I want this habit of one frozen drink a week to have time to set in. 

My goal for this week: 1 frozen drink this week

Lesson learned from accomplishing this goal: I need to schedule my day and time to get my drink, like an appointment. Then, I truly look forward to it, and if it's not written in my schedule, I can't go get it.

Have a great week!

Sunday, May 4, 2014

New Goal Sunday

Time for New Goal Sunday, where I choose goals to work on in the week ahead (Sunday-Saturday).

This week's goals:

1.) Give up one fast-food meal and frozen mocha per week.

Start: 7 fast-food meals and frozen mochas per week (1 every day)
Goal: 6 fast-food meals and frozen mochas per week

2.) Take 2-3 minutes to record what I eat after each meal.

I have slipped on both of these goals and hopefully can get back on track. Working at the place where I get my favorite drink--a frozen mocha--is going to be quite a challenge!


Sunday, February 9, 2014

New Goal Sunday

Happy Sunday!

I'm off to a great start this week. This morning, after a FANTASTIC weekend at the music education professional development conference in Columbus, I had a healthy breakfast of a bowl of Special K Chocolatey Delight cereal with skim milk (clearly I love chocolate at all times of the day) and a glass of water. I filled up a water bottle and was on my way to the gym. I did gain some pounds back (3 to be precise) after not going to the gym for 1 week. I was up to 424.6 last week, but that number is already falling (I checked!).

My January fitness goal (even though I never told you) was to "up" the intensity of some of my workout in the gym. The long-term goal from this? Get the maximum benefit out of each workout. Here are some of the intensity boosts I've given myself lately at the gym: ramp up the incline to .5% during down times and 1% during small intervals on the treadmill; stop the treadmill halfway through for 30 seconds to catch my breath--stop for 15 seconds--stop for 10 seconds--stop for 5 seconds--don't stop (I made it through 15 minutes non-stop today!!!!); add 5 pounds to chest press (30-35-40), do 1 pushup, do 5 pushups, do 10 pushups;

Today, I upped the intensity by going non-stop on the treadmill, as in, not stopping at all during my 15 minutes! This is a big step for me. My palms were really sweaty and I was so self-conscious about how much I sweated onto the machine, but it felt so good!!

When I got home, I had (one of) my February goal(s): a healthy post-workout snack. I had lowfat vanilla yogurt with cereal pieces and a cup of diced pears.

In the middle of church, my stomach started making growling noises, and by the time I was done, I needed food, and STAT. Now I'm wondering if just a bowl of cereal is not enough for a good breakfast. I'll have to figure something else out...

My new goal this week is:

Have 1 frozen mocha and 1 fast-food meal per week

I can't believe it. If I can accomplish this goal, then I will be done with focusing on frozen mochas and can add other goals. Wow. It's been a long struggle, but I finally have those mochas and fast-food meals under control!!

Lastly, today, I put on this cardigan that I could never wear before because it looked painted on (especially in the arms). If you check out my Facebook or Twitter, I Instagrammed a pic of me wearing the cardigan with very baggy arms! I am a VERY happy person today. Have a great week!

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Happy February!

It's month 2 of 2014 (wow, January went fast), and things are officially on a roll in my life. Piano lessons are starting back up after a hectic holiday season, subbing calls are slowly coming back (even though we've been in school for what...5 days since January 5th? Thanks, bitter, nasty winter), accompanying is back on a regular schedule, and church responsibilities are picking up as we get closer to Lent. I don't know if any other readers have seen the harsh winter we have. Maybe you've had worse, but Ohio's governor has asked the state to extend calamity days from 5 to 9 for this one year because that is just how bad this winter is. We had 3 "arctic plunges" in January, where temps dipped into the negatives, and wind chills dipped to the -40s. A lot of our school closings are because of temps, not snow. I think there was one REALLY bad storm where my county was on a Level 3 road warning (driving was illegal except for emergency crews), but that was over in a few days. I think we're all ready for spring....

EXCEPT FOR ME!!! I LOVE WINTER!!!!!!! Make it snow EVERYDAY, PLEASE!! I really do love winter. I could live in this climate. This is my favorite season, mainly because I have a TON of winter clothing (sweaters, 2 pairs boots, long-sleeved shirts, etc...) that I love wearing and I LOVE snuggling up to a warm fire with a cup of hot cocoa.

Ok, start of a new month, start of some new goals. 

I know it's not Sunday yet, but I thought I would get a jump start.

First of all, an update on my "resolution" to lose 50 lbs by the end of the year. So far, I have dropped 8 pounds! Not bad for one month...not bad at all!

Next up, I have decided that weekly goals are good, but now I'd like to add more: monthly goals.

February's monthly goals: 
Aim for 2 DAYS OF REST; that means I am striving to work out 5 days a week.
Try new post-workout snack: Fruit & yogurt

My new weekly goal:
Give up 1 fast-food meal/frozen mocha per week
Start: 2 Goal: 1
Have a good week!

Monday, January 6, 2014

Arctic freeze, New Goal Sunday, and Motivation Monday

A three-topic title would suggest a long blog post, but it won't be too long.

There's not much to blog about at this moment in terms of weight loss...

My goal this week is to cut down from 3 fast-food meals and frozen mochas to 2 fast-food meals and frozen mochas, and so far, so good. Last night, the family went out to a local pizza restaurant. We were going to do delivery, but then you have to wait for it (hopefully on time with bad driving conditions), then clean up, etc...too long for us! So we went 5 minutes east(ish), but it ended up taking us nearly 20 minutes because of the awful road conditions. Other than that, I haven't had ANY mochas (a miracle!!).

In case you live under a rock or anywhere not in the path of this massive winter storm "Ion", this thing chugged its way across Ohio yesterday evening and last night/this morning. Last night, the family went to dinner around 6, and already the roads were slick. By the time we finished at 7, the ramp to go out the door down to the parking lot, albeit small, was so slippery that I just glided down it. We got home, and I haven't left this house since. I would've had work today, but school was cancelled. I could've gotten a call for tomorrow, but my school was the first to cancel for tomorrow! The wind chills have dropped from 0 at 6 a.m. to -35 currently, and the wind is blowing so hard our windows and doors shake! It is so bad that our county and all others around it have issued a "Level 3 road warning": only if it is an ABSOLUTE emergency or you have a GOOD REASON should you be out on the road. If drivers go out on the road for...well, not "good reasons", they have a chance to get arrested.
*Fight that craving for a frozen mocha, Morgan, you can't go out and get it anyways...*

Dad, of course, had work today; he said the roads are sheets of ice.

No gym for me today/tomorrow....I guess I have to get creative with what I've got...it's times like these that I wish my Dance Dance Revolution game pad hadn't broken.

Lastly, my motivational quote. It's a bit long, but a good one:

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."--Kurt Vonnegut

Have a good week, and if you are amidst winter storm "Ion", stay warm!

Sunday, December 1, 2013

New Goal Sunday and Happy December!

Happy Sunday and happy December! Hope you are ready, or preparing for, a wonderful holiday season. I have already started decorating my room, but that is about it. In past years, my family has already had cookie doughs prepared and decorations down from the attic. This year is much different. The whole family has been very busy and we have not had much time to focus on Christmas. However, we always find a way to be ready for Christmas, no matter our schedule. It's Christmas, after all!

So, if you can see a pattern in my past few months of blogs, I haven't blogged much. Or...as much as I would like to. I can honestly say that I really fell off the bandwagon. Bad. I guess that means I have to just pick myself up and start over, doesn't it? It does.

So. I guess my new starting weight is...430 lbs.

But good news. I was really mad when I saw that number. Like furious. I didn't want that in my life. Out of the blue, I started making better food choices, both at home and in restaurants. I got back into SOMEWHAT of a routine of going to the gym. And BAM. Like that, in 2 weeks, I dropped 5.8 lbs.

Which means I am already down to 424.2 lbs!!!!

I am gonna knock this weight off! This is good motivation!

"New" goal this week is the same as always:

Give up one fast-food meal/frozen mocha per week
Start: 4 meals/mochas
Goal: 3 meals/mochas

Lastly, this is my 100th post!! It only took me nearly 2 years...oh well. Here's to 100 more!
Enjoy the happy holiday season!

Sunday, November 17, 2013

New Goal Sunday

Catching up on a week's worth of falling off the wagon is hard work. I didn't go to the gym much this past week, nor did I do well on my goal. But, on a positive note, I did better than the previous week on my goal.

I've gotten sick--like, really sick--and I'm feeling lazy and sluggish. I thought at first it was a nasty cold or upper respiratory infection, like Bro and Mom had, but I had slightly different symptoms. A few days ago, I started getting a stuffy nose (worse than usual). The next day, I woke up, and my voice was not doing well...perfect, because that night, I had to lead a choir rehearsal. Flash forward to today, and it is not going well. My voice is almost gone (comes and goes in spurts, and when it is there, it is super low), my nose is stuffed, my whole body aches, I can't sleep at night, and I am constantly hot/cold (both at the same time, like my hands will be ice, but my face will look flushed and feel like I'm on fire).

My goal this week is:

Give up one fast-food/frozen mocha a week
Start: 4 meals/mochas
GOAL: 3 meals/mochas 
DATES: 11/17-11/23

This week is one of my busiest before Christmas. It includes 3 day rehearsals and 1 night rehearsal at the school where I accompany the choirs, 2 piano lessons, a concert for the choirs I accompany, and a church choir rehearsal. It doesn't seem like much when I write it but I just know I'll be whooped come Saturday night. 

Oh well...as I always say, it's better to be busy--it makes the time go by faster.

Have a good week!

Sunday, November 10, 2013

New Goal Sunday & Happy Memories

Time for another goal. After last week's success, I am ready to go further!


Give up one fast-food meal (and frozen mocha), one per week
Start: 4 meals/mochas
11/10-11/16 goal: 3 meals/mochas

My long-term goal is to reach 1 fast-food meal/frozen mocha per week. 

I am a negative person, and noticed that I usually am on the blog writing about how I failed, or feel crappy...but I feel the need to post this positivity that happened Friday and yesterday.

Friday morning was awful for me. I had no motivation to go to work and was in a terrible mood. I eventually dragged myself into the car and got going. Fortunately, my dad is a business genius, so he was able to get a really good deal on Sirius XM for the past 3 years, so I still have Sirius XM in the car. I turned on the radio to "On Broadway", and immediately became grumbly.

"I don't know any of these stupid new musicals. Why do they keep making them? There's too much crap out there now." 

The song ends, and on comes "Corner of the Sky" from Pippin. I smiled and got teary-eyed. This song has such special meaning to me. This is a song that my cooperating teacher and I taught to the 6th (? I think) graders while I was student teaching. The students and I loved that song! 

All of a sudden, all of the good memories of student teaching came flooding back. The conversations with my cooperating teachers, the fun students I met and got to know, the events I attended, the memories I made with the students and teachers--all good memories.

I belted the song out at the top of my lungs all the way to school. While the day turned out awful (ending in sickness :( ), I had that song in the back of my head all day. 

Then yesterday, I woke up and could not get that song out of my head! I sang it aloud all day long and had a smile on my face all day.

Remembering great times in your life can be very helpful in shaping your day!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Here I am!

I am back! Finally, after a long blogging hiatus, I am ready to jump back into my journey.

The school year has started and is in full swing. What do I do during the school year? Here's a glimpse:

--substitute teach at my hometown school district (except for the K-2 levels; I just don't feel ready for those ages just yet)

--accompany the choirs at another local school district every third day and everyday as concerts near

--teach private piano lessons to 3 students; 2 at my home, 1 at the school I accompany (during the lunch hour; this student knows how to play the piano, I am just working on helping this student read music)

--play organ/keyboard, accompany the choir, and rehearse with/direct the choir at a local church every Sunday, with choir rehearsal every Wednesday night and a team meeting with some members of the church once a month before the choir rehearsal

I have been subbing quite a bit, and I have found that the school that fits me best is the elementary (or "intermediate" 3-5) school. My days, nights, and weekends are full, so right now, I am trying to find a consistent time to go to the gym.

My goal this week was to cut back to 4 frozen mochas and 4 fast-food meals a week. And guess what: I DID IT!!!  It has taken me weeks to succeed at this goal, mainly because I have felt lately like I need my coffee drink everyday to survive.

Since I finally completed my goal, I wanted to reward myself. When I started this journey, I would always reward myself with food. But that doesn't make sense, since I'm trying to LOSE weight and feeding myself more is wrong. Instead, I chose one of my favorite stores as a reward--ULTA.

I love that store. I used to go once a week to buy something new. After a few months, I realized just how much money I wasted in that store. It got pretty bad.

It took me nearly a month, but I finally get to go to ULTA!! I am so excited!!

Check back for a new goal next week.

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Update/New Goal Sunday

Here's an update on my progress so far:

Progress is at a standstill. I know I've even fallen off the track for about a month. My gym membership expired at the beginning of August and I didn't renew it until about half a week ago. I've just begun going back 2 times a week.

I know I've gained weight (definitely gained weight), but everyday can be a fresh start. Tonight, I am going to set up a schedule for: 

gym/practicing (piano, organ, & flute)/school/subbing/lessons/housework

My goals have completely fallen by the wayside. So, let's start over, eh?
Goal:

Give up one fast-food meal per week--eat total of 6 meals out

I ate out a lot this week...especially because we are running out of food in the house to eat! Thank goodness tomorrow is payday/shopping day. If I stop and think about it, I realized that I ate out once every day last week!! So my goal this week is to eat 1 whole day at home. If I eat more at home (more than 1 whole day at home), then good for me!

Also, I plan on tracking my goals and their progressions this time, because while I feel that I can meet the goals, I also feel that if I don't track them, I don't need to think about what I do or focus on reaching those goals.

Have a great week!

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Moonville, Tribe, and PC...phew!


What can I say about my absence on this blog? I have been keeping busy with last-minute “summer vacations”, preparing for school, keeping busy with lessons, and church. 

Since I have been gone so long, I feel like I should update you with what I have been doing in my life. I'll start with Moonville.

The last time Dad and I took a road trip, I was a senior in high school (5 years ago). I decided it was time for another, but this time we would go to an abandoned town. Here is the history I have found so far:

Moonville was an industrial town in Southeast Ohio where The Cincinnati-Marietta railroad trains ran through. After the Cincinnati-Marietta Railroad company merged with another Baltimore company, train traffic still went through, just not as much. In the 1980s, trains stopped running through Moonville completely. Today, the town is almost completely empty, save for 2 houses Dad and I saw. The tunnel still sits there. Some railroad track is still visible, but much of it is overgrown or broken into pieces. Some of the ghost stories for the tunnel include:

1.) A brakeman was “drunk” and fell off the train. The train crushed his legs and he died before amputation could be done.
2.) A headless conductor walks the tunnel with a lantern, searching for his train (the light has been seen by college students who were exploring; one ran down to see who was carrying it and came running out screaming that no one was there...however, these students were drinking).
3.) An old woman was killed while walking near the track. They say whenever you smell lavender, she is walking near you.

The trip took us 6 hours. Dad and I left town around 9:30 a.m. We stopped at a Skyline Chili near Columbus, then continued down to Logan. As we reached Logan, we started driving into very rural, somewhat poor neighborhoods. We had reached “Appalachia”, where Moonville was.

From what I saw online, and from our Google Maps, we should run right into the tunnel. We drove through 10 minutes of paved road, with mountain on one side and deep ravine on the other. After 10 minutes, the road became unpaved. After 30 minutes of driving through paved and unpaved roads, Dad and I were nervous.  We stopped at a new house being built and asked for directions.

We drove back to a parking lot and parked. Only 300 feet of woodsy trail separated us from ghosts!

We found the trail. It was COVERED with poison ivy, brier, and poison oak. With branches jutting out onto the trail, Dad and I held up our arms and sidled through the entire way. On top of that, it was sprinkling, meaning the trail, consisting of mud, was slick. Another yuck: it was hot and humid. NOT hiking weather. Dad and I were both sweating within minutes of taking off. Another problem? We were walking right next to a stinky creek. The smell was unbearable. Lastly: THE MOSQUITOES. They were EVERYWHERE, attacking Dad and I nonstop. I got 10 bites all over my arms.

Dad went first on the trail and had to help me get across and up many slopes. After walking 1/2 MILE, we reached a steep slope made of sand and gravel. Dad said, “I have a feeling this is it.” He ran up the slope. I made it 3/4 of the way up, stopped to find my next footing, and watched my feet slip down to the bottom. When I hit the bottom, I hear Dad scream, “This is it! Wow, it’s huge.” I try once again to stumble up, but slide back down, this time almost falling backwards. I make it halfway up. I break into sobs because I literally cannot push myself anymore. I couldn’t do it. I did not see the Moonville Tunnel. I was devastated. 6 hours of driving for nothing. Dad came back down and said that it was OK; that if I did get up, I would not get down. He took one step down and slid the rest of the way.

Another 1/2 mile back, me using my purse as a bug swatter, and Dad and I brushed the bugs off, jumped in the car, and took off. We had both seen the Lake Hope State Park, which housed Hope Furnace, also supposedly haunted. This site was much more accessible to the public, and eerie when you walked up to it. As soon as I can find my camera, pictures will be up.

Hope Furnace is a blast furnace located near Logan. They smelted iron ore between 1854 and 1874.  

All in all, a fun trip with Dad, but sad because I couldn’t see the thing I had gone to see. 

NEXT: Tribe game. The family went to Cleveland to see an Indians game. They lost 10-3 to Detroit. But we had so much fun. Best part of the game: Brother and I found PORTABLE MARGARITA MACHINES.

NEXT (yesterday): Port Clinton. We live about 45 minutes from Port Clinton, and we love going as a family. Yesterday, we went and spent half the day there. First, we went to Coffee Express, a small local coffee shop with DELICIOUS muffins and bagels. Next was one of my favorite stores: Great Lakes Popcorn Company. This place carries popcorn (surprise) and candied nuts. Their popcorn comes in many different flavors: butter and salt, caramel, cheddar, grape, green apple, chocolate drizzle, blueberry, peach, Kahlua, etc...I got a big bag of Island Mix (white cheddar and caramel). After that, we went to Cheese Haven. This place sells cheeses, meats, jams and jellies, drinks, alcohol, sweets, etc... I got a link of “summer sausage”. Then, we drove to Bergman’s Orchard, where we picked up fresh cantaloupe, peaches, cherry pie filling, green beans, and mushrooms. Lastly, we drove out to a small park on Lake Erie near the Marblehead Lighthouse, where we got to see Cedar Point straight out from the water’s edge.

I’ll end this rambling post with my goal for this week: 

Eat a healthy breakfast.

Here is the explanation from Sparkpeople: 

“Most people skip over the most important meal of the day. And most breakfast foods are high in sugar, fat, and simple carbohydrates that spike your blood sugar and leave you feeling hungry. The right combination of fiber and protein will give you an energy boost in the morning and get you started on the right foot. A few breakfast favorites are equipped with the protein and fiber you’ll need. For protein, a couple of eggs, a serving of Greek yogurt, or some low-fat dairy will fit the bill. For fiber, there select oatmeal, whole-grain toast or whole-grain cereals. Try to create a new habit of eating breakfast every day. Studies show that breakfast eaters eat less throughout the day and are more likely to manage their weight.”


I will be (try to) posting pictures of “a week in breakfasts” at the end of the week, so you can see what I eat here at home. Hope you have a good week! See you tomorrow.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

New Goal Sunday

Nothing new to report this Sunday. I have the same goal as last Sunday--

Get 8 hours of sleep daily.


This week has just been an "ugh" kind of week. I didn't do so hot with food, the gym, everything. I usually can tell when I'm slipping into a state of depression, and this feels like it is that time.

Since having 4 job interviews and 4 (or more) schools turning me down, I am so frustrated with a job. Don't get me wrong: I love living with my family. I always have my family with me, whenever I need someone. However, I am 23 years old, and would like a chance at life as an adult, ya know, with a full-time job, apartment, taking care of myself?

*big sigh* But it's ok. Or it should be. I may not be a super-dee-duper religious person, but I just keep saying to myself: God has another plan for me. He wouldn't bring me all this way to drop me. Must be something else He needs me for.

Enough negativity! I'm done being negative!! Tomorrow is a new day. Tonight, I am heading to bed early, to be ready to kick butt tomorrow.

My motivational quote of the week: "Things turn out the best for those who make the best out of the way things turn out."--John Wooden

I think this suits me well this week!