New Goal Sunday

New Goal Sunday

Happy Sunday! My new goal for this week is a common one for me, but one I’m struggling with big time:

5 frozen mochas/week

I thought I would be down to 6 this week, but turns out I was actually able to skip one day last week, so I’m down to 5—not 6—this week. These stupid drinks. They won’t let me go, and I can’t escape them. Mentally, I use them as a reward for…well…everything. Did I have a successful week of work? Frappucino. Did I teach well today? Frozen mocha. Do I have a long distance to travel? Frappucino. Did I wake up and get something done this morning? Frozen mocha. Is it Monday? I need a frappucino. Did I wake up? Frozen mocha.

Physically, I feel like I’ve trained my body to feel drained of energy if I don’t have one. On the day last week that I didn’t have one, I was too busy in the morning to grab one, but keeping myself busy was key. I didn’t feel drained of energy, but was active all morning. Imagine that…active without my morning gallon of sugar/caffeine? Couldn’t be.

Sometimes, I can even get emotional over these drinks. My dad tries to help, but I will get emotional, getting a little teary-eyed if he says no. I then explain to him just how much I need these drinks.

I’ve been getting these drinks for well over a decade, and I’m sick of feeling dependent on them. Hopefully, holding myself more accountable by being more social and open about my daily life will force me to completely cut my dependence on these.